It made me chuckle and grimace. It's true. I don't. My glass isn't full or empty it is fragile. And while motherhood exaggerates this tendency this example was in early 2009- my young footloose and fancy free self.
The fragility is what stresses me out. How could I be as lucky as I am? How? There must be a dangling shoe somewhere.
I really struggle to keep those feelings at bay and appreciate the here and now. But every time I get giddy looking at the life I have I immediately mentally knock on wood as I imagine all the terrible twists that could bring us to our knees.
It really isn't the best way to live and I worry what it means about my mental health.
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Is there some relevance to babym being on her side/upside down?
Amber, do you know Brene Brown? She is a social science researcher who studies stuff like this! She talks (in this TED talk, I think?) about how many of us "dress rehearse grief" or tragedy when we experience joy. Joy is hard to experience. Apparently you are not alone!
http://blog.ted.com/brene-brown-interviewed-by-oprah-in-a-two-part-episode-of-super-soul-sunday/
She hangs out next to me and I wind up with strange angles for pics. I only keep her upside down infrequently.
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