Friday, May 28, 2010

Connecting the dots

I have been realizing the past few days that I don't necessarily connect the dots from fitness-weight-exercise(and the fun of it) to health. I guess I know in my head that they are vitally connected but my choices about eating and moving basically give overall health no regard.

My mom is having some surgery in a few hours, and probably more to come, and I am sad and semi-annoyed that she never gave her health much notice. But I guess I am not a great example of taking my own health deliberately seriously. I just lucked out to find activity that I love and some amount of balance in my food choices (although I have been stress eating pretzel M&M like nobodies business this week!) but I have only a vague notion of how that is affecting my health and longevity.

It is 1:30am and I'm tired but I can't decide whether not making the direct association is a good or bad thing?
I know that taking care of future-Amber is my job and there are people in this world who expect me to do a good job because they love present-Amber and want to get to know future-Amber. So I think I should take it seriously for them.
On the other hand, I like the idea that if I just live as present-Amber trying to stay sane and balanced and trying new physical activities and remembering how much I love the adventures that running/triathlon have given me, I will be doing enough to protect future-Amber. This route allows me to stay sane and happy but may lead to poor choices for lack of perspective.

Hmm, I'll have to think about that one. One thing I know for sure is that neither present nor future me likes referring to myself in the 3rd person; so that'll have to stop.

1 comment:

The Devil's Starchy Fingers said...

First off, I am sending present-Amber a hug. This stuff is stressful. Trust me, I know. I have been dealing with parental health issues for years and years now. Many of which they could have prevented by paying attention to their health and well being, both physical and mental. So I understand your frustration and annoyance. I will be sending healthy vibes her way today.

Secondly, you will find the balance between the two things. You exercise, you eat right the majority of the time but life isn't about deprivation and extremism and I think you get that. You seem to be a balanced person and the balance of a healthy life-style will treat you well. And sometimes you do everything "right" and you still end up with some horrible disease that is out of your control.

The fact that you think about your health as much as you do is a sign that you are probably going to be OK. Chin up, Present-Amber!!

Best of luck to your Mom.