I have been realizing the past few days that I don't necessarily connect the dots from fitness-weight-exercise(and the fun of it) to health. I guess I know in my head that they are vitally connected but my choices about eating and moving basically give overall health no regard.
My mom is having some surgery in a few hours, and probably more to come, and I am sad and semi-annoyed that she never gave her health much notice. But I guess I am not a great example of taking my own health deliberately seriously. I just lucked out to find activity that I love and some amount of balance in my food choices (although I have been stress eating pretzel M&M like nobodies business this week!) but I have only a vague notion of how that is affecting my health and longevity.
It is 1:30am and I'm tired but I can't decide whether not making the direct association is a good or bad thing?
I know that taking care of future-Amber is my job and there are people in this world who expect me to do a good job because they love present-Amber and want to get to know future-Amber. So I think I should take it seriously for them.
On the other hand, I like the idea that if I just live as present-Amber trying to stay sane and balanced and trying new physical activities and remembering how much I love the adventures that running/triathlon have given me, I will be doing enough to protect future-Amber. This route allows me to stay sane and happy but may lead to poor choices for lack of perspective.
Hmm, I'll have to think about that one. One thing I know for sure is that neither present nor future me likes referring to myself in the 3rd person; so that'll have to stop.